Have you ever been THIS unhappy with yourself?

First of all..try having 2 kids and then tell me how your body looks...lol ! To me it sounds like you have no real problem at all (as far as weight goes)...sounds like your unhappy on the inside more, or maybe you feel like your not standing up to some expectation or how you should look in comparison to others. I feel the same way, i just had my 2nd son in August and i am at my highest weight in my life...i am 5'11 but i am waaaayyyy over your 125...i feel so depressed sometimes looking in the mirror..why cant i go back to the way i was?? And dont get me wrong...i have never been a thin girl... Its hard and i cannot motivate myself to excersize either. Plus having 2 kids one 4 and one 3 months makes it hard to have any alone time to do that...by the time my husband gets home from work its to late (and im too tired) to go work out...But....if you feel this bad, then you will just make up in your mind to do it...eating healthy...going for a walk or a run...you just have to do it to change it. There is nothing wrong with shopping for bigger clothes, i was in denial for a while after i had the baby...blaming it on the "new low waist style" as to why i can pull up my old pre-pregnancy jeans...I broke down and bought a bigger size but kept all my other clothes...i told myself i will wear these until i can lose the weight i gained. But please dont get caught up in this..i have to be stick thin to be beautiful society. Im sure your georgeous and if you cant shop in the juniors section anymore so what...those sizes are unbelievable anyways....my 4 year old son fits into some of those sizes it seems. Im not sure how old you are or what but...let me tell you...buy a bigger size!! there is nothing flattering than squezzing yourself into clothes that are too small for you, it will just make you look bigger and feel worse. Get some bigger clothes but make the decision to try and lose the weight in the mean time. It wont happen overnight & you dont have to starve yourself. There is no pill that will just make it go away. Being heavey doesn't automatically mean your not beautiful. You need to learn that first before you decide your unhappy. I suppose thats my downfall also...i work in a plus size clothing store that sells awesome trendy plus size clothes...i am big but i am beautiful, and i know it. Plus i am surrounded by girls i work with who are confadent in the way they look. So its a positive enviorment to be in, people will always judge you if you are bigger, but its how you feel inside thats important. Nobody should be made to feel bad because they are heavey.